What a Week.

I'm pretty sure this has been the worst week since Andrew died back in July. It's almost like...shocking, I really thought 2009 would leave with all the bad times, and we'd start off 2010 with a bang!
Yeah....WRONG!!
To start, I had a completely boring weekend, other than watching the Cowboys win and harrassing Tyler. My dad pretty much put in 24 extra hours of work trying to complete a project.
So Monday roles around...and we all know how hated Mondays are. Well, I especially hate this past one. Around 10 AM, Dad called, though I didn't know it was him at first. I heard my mom start to say "NO! What?! No..." and she started to cry. I swear my heart may have stopped beating for a few seconds there. I thought someone had died, and I can't take anymore death. Hannah and Andrew in one year were way too many...
So five minutes later, I walk out of the bathroom, after combing my hair, and there's my mom, sitting on the footrest in my bedroom.
Sobbing her heart out.

If there's one thing I hate more than myself crying, it's when my mom crys. She is one of the strongest people I have ever met. She's my role model, my hero. I trust her with my life. She's the person I strive to become, the one I look up to. Seeing her sobbing, well, it just devastates me.
Katie, my 14 yr. old sister, whispered...dad had lost his job. That's why Mom was so upset, so heartbroken. We've been through this so many times before, he must have been laid off four or five times now in my almost 16 years of life. But no one saw this one coming. Not a single one of us. He worked his butt off for this company, did everything humanly possible to do things right and get work done. They used him!! He put in 24 hours of work over the weekend, and they let him...knowing that they were going to lay him off on Monday morning. The only comfort I have is knowing that 49 other people were laid off Monday as well, and even more last week.

It just doesn't seem fair. For my dad, a hard-working, loyal man, to be laid off...because his salary was too large for the company's expenses. Yup, that's why they fired him.
Ridiculous.

I really just am struggling with putting all my trust in God. I can't stand to think that He would do something like this to my family, especially when we're still recovering with our finances. We're not poor, but we aren't bountiful either. It's just hard to think God is really out there, when such terrible things happen. It just seems like one after the other, deaths, my many injuries in one year, now this. It's so wrong.

Just need prayer. Am not having a good week. He's already got potential job offers, but those are so inconsistant that I don't want to get my hopes up too high.

Oh, the struggles we go through.
-headdesk-

Overthinking

So.
Overthinking.
I hate it.
It's like...
You can't think of something quickly.
You have to examine every possible outcome with every possible combination.
Which takes twice as long as you expected.
Terrible.

Life just needs to be easier. Even ROAD MAPS are easier than life, and they're pretty complex.
Maybe life should be like a road map. You consult the piece of paper in front of you, and follow the directions. Like mapquest. Plug in what you're thinking, and be given instant answers.
Unless, of course, you type something wrong. Then you have errors and are sent in the wrong direction.
Best part is, when you overthink things, you forget what you were thinking about in the first place. xD
So. If you just make quick, snappy decisions, not only will you save yourself time, you will say yourself the terrible stress and confusion of overthinking things.

Point made.
Overthinking is overrated.


Grah...

Might as well start with this

A Fun Lil' Quiz to Get to Know You

Let's Get the Basics...
YOU
Name?: Jackie Burton
Birthday?: April 4th, 1994
Birthplace?: Bryn Mawr Hospital, PA
Where do you live now?: West Chester, PA
What do you do?: Er...This could take a while... I'm a sophmore in high school...
What's you heritage?: Oh good grief. Who cares?
Singe, Taken, or Looking?: Single, not taken, not looking either. -_-
Let the Randomness begin...
What's your first thought when you wake up?: Usually "I want to go back to sleep"
How many times a day do you brush your teeth?: 2-3
Do you eat meat?: Heck yes.
What phobias do you have?: That's too official. I'm afraid of spiders, clowns, knives, and lizards.
What color best describes your personality and why?: Do I need to take another quiz to answer this? I'm outgoing, fun, and loud. There. I'm RAINBOW COLORED!
What's your favorite junk food?: 3 Musketeers Bar FTW
What's your bedtime?: It changes every night. xD
If you could have any pet in the imaginable world, what would it be?: A squirrel. Or maybe a penguin. Or possibly a polar bear. Or maybe...IDK.
What's your favorite character from a book?: That would require me actually reading...
From a film?: Tigger, though it's a movie, not a film. What are we in, the '50s?
Would you rather be a hero or an antagonist?: Considering I don't know what an antagonist is, I'd choose hero.
Do you own a pair of "fat" pants?: If you ask anyone I know, they'll tell you I'm not fat. So no comment. xD
Approx. how many pairs of shoes do you own?: Erm...17.
Salty or sweet?: Salty
Your favorite childhood pastime?: First soccer championship, 1999.
What country would you most like to visit?: Russia, ily Greg xD
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?: Sleep with? No. But my three favorite stuffed animals sit next to my pillow all day and all night.
If you could meet anyone, dead or alive, who would it be?: God.
If you could go to any time period, what would it be?: Dinosaur time.
Do you follow politics?: No. It's all a bunch of
Do you read the paper daily?: Nope.
Do you consider yourself successful?: In what?
What is your guilty pleasure?: Candy.
Can you swim?: Uh, yeah. I go to the beach all summer.
Preferences
Coke or Pepsi?: Neither. Soda kills me.
Chips or Pretzels?: Chips, Sour Cream & Onion <3
Tea or Coffee?: Neither. I hate both
Shower or Bath?: Shower
Cold or hot?: Hot, especially guys xD
Chapstick or Blistex?: Chapstick
Dog or Cat?: Dog, cats are evil and stuck up.
Traveling or Stationary?: Traveling!
Wild orTame?: Wild, duh.
Spiritual or atheist?: Spiritual
Jessica or Nick?: Neither
Angelina or Jennifer?: Neither
Cheating or Faithful?: CHEATING! This is what happens when you know Cody and Barry. xD
Red or Blue?: Blue, though red is my second fav. xD
Favorites
Beer?: No comment.
Cocktail?: No comment.
Farm animal?: Chickens.
Celebrity?: Emmitt Smith
Color?: Blue
Holiday?: 4th of July
Vacation spot?: Ocean City, New Jersey <3
Movie genre?: Action
Gemstone?: Diamond
President?: This would require me actually paying attention.
Comedian?: Tim Hawkins
Actor?: My brother. =P
Actress?: My sister. xD
Band/Music Artist?: At the moment? My obsession is Skillet
Seasame Street Character?: Cookie Monster, though I heard they made him Veggie Monster =0
TV Detective Show?: Lie to Me. Does that count?
Cartoon Show?: Scooby Doo. xD
Wrestler?: Tyler Marshall hahaha.
Soup?: Chicken Noodle
And to Wrap Things Up...
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?: *thinks* In college.
Do you want to own your own home?: Who doesn't?
Do you plan on getting married?: Sure. If the right guy comes along.
Plan on having children?: Heck yes, though not as many as my mom.
Are you pierced and/or inked?: Maybe my ears pierced.
Is the Glass half empty or Half full?: Half empty.
If you don't use it do you lose it?: Depends. ipod, yes. Computer? Nope.
Do you own a bicycle?: YES!
Are you a drunkard?: Uhm...I'm 15 xP
Are you good with money?: No. I'm an impulsive spender.
Do you vote?: Nope.
Do you watch The Price is Right?: Once a year.
Are you close with your parents?: Pretty close, I'd like to be closer
Do they watch The Price is Right?: Dejavu??
What is your preferred superhero power?: Invisibility xD
Do you hold grudges?: Sometimes.
Do you believe in (a) God?: Yes, the One and Only
Anything else you'd like to mention?: You just wasted fifteen minutes of your life reading this.. Now buy me a candy bar.

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